Tragic Flaw (of a hero)

So, I've been thinking the past few days about a particular subject...one of which I will discuss after considering the lyrics of a very talented band that once existed a few years back (ok, ok, so the band was me and four guys from Prairie Bible College, and we only ever had one "concert" that we put on at the Bible College, but I must give ourselves credit that we wrote our own stuff, and even put out a little demo, which, by the way, is available for anyone who wants a copy)

Tragic Flaw (of a hero)

Yesterday, I would go about saving the world
From all those nasty villains who tear apart dreams and things
It seemed I was a hero:
Always dependable, arriving in the nick of time to glue things back together
It seemed I was a hero, but I had a tragic flaw

What can a hero do when she's running out of glue
And her hands are clumsy, and her eyes are too tired to see anymore?

So, while out smoothing the affairs of those in need
I neglected the hunger inside of me, which started like a thought,
Mere imagination,
But spread like wildfire
It seemed I was a hero, but I couldn't save myself

So, what can a hero do when she's running out of glue
And her hands are clumsy, and her eyes are too tired to see anymore?

It seemed I was a hero,
but I need a Bigger Hero now.

I wrote this song at a time in my life where I just wanted everything in the world to be alright. I was still young (well, I suppose I still am), but I felt like I was the one trying to hold friendships together, be really involved in school and with the youth group and other ministries, "saving the world" or so to speak. I would get frustrated when people weren't getting along, or some of my friends weren't accepting the gospel. I was wearing myself out trying to be involved in anything and everything...I don't know what was wrong with me, to think that I could singlehandedly change the world (or Cold Lake atleast). At this point, I started to realize that, though my intentions were good, I was going about things the wrong way: I was doing everything on my own strength, and I wasn't really getting anywhere but worn out.

I think this issue is very common with people involved in ministry, whether it be pastors, worship leaders, sunday school teachers, or even church secretaries. It is very easy to get caught up in trying to be there for everyone else, that we forget that "He who calls [us] is faithful, who also will do it."(1 Thess. 5:24) God calls us into ministry, but we can't forget that it is by His strength that we are able to accomplish His will. We can often get so overwhelmed by all of our obligations that we can also forget that we too need to be fed spiritually and encouraged and challenged in our quiet times with God, and in fellowship with other believers.

Yes, at the tender age of 17 I realized these things. Then I went to Bible school and came back ready to take on the world...what a reality check. Four years of trying to impact lives on both an individual and global scale, but without making sure to have things right in my own relationship with God, and I'm just "getting it" again. Yeah, it took some heartbreak and some broken dreams, but I'm exactly in the state of mind where God can use me how He wants.

Can any of you relate?