DEJA VU...?

Its funny...the term 'history repeats itself' hasn't meant too much to me in the past, yet these last few weeks have seemed oddly familiar to me in a way. Perhaps I should explain a little of the history to which I am referring.

This takes you back exactly four years ago. I had graduated from Capernwray Harbour the spring before, and I was moving to Calgary to begin my University career. Me and my boyfriend at the time broke up right before I moved, so I found myself alone in the apartment my brother and I shared, trying to mend my broken heart, and trying to fit into a city where I knew no one. Sure, I kept myself busy at school, but even that was overwhelming- my school was twice the size of my hometown of Cold Lake, AB. It was a tough time for me, and fitting in was something that took a couple of years to happen...

Fast forward four years to the present: let's see the similarities:

just graduated from school: CHECK
just broke up with boyfriend in Cold Lake: CHECK
move to new city: CHECK
living in an apartment with sibling: CHECK
know next to no one: CHECK
feel alone: CHECK
wonder where the heck my life is headed: CHECK

I've heard people say your life gets better once you're out of high school. I don't know who these people were, but they must live in a bubble or something. Or be spoiled rockstars. I don't know...

Anyhow, so anyone reading this must think I'm totally depressing or something. But there is a hopeful point to these musings, its on its way, surely...?

So, it occured to me the other day that I am in the same place as I was four years ago. The prior experience was brutal, I literally wasted away in my loneliness and confusion. But this time, although tough, I'm not letting it get me down. I don't know why God brought me back to this place again, but I'm here, and this time I'm looking for the lesson that I'm meant to learn. This time I'm trying to keep optimistic about my future. This time I am clinging to the hope that God has a specific plan for my life, and I am willing to go in any direction He leads me. This time, He could take me anywhere: I'm not tied down to a 4 year university committment (just a 5 year car payment plan...) Its scary, yet exciting.

Hmmm...I wonder what will happen this year. Here are the four most likely options:

1) I get 'discovered' singing Karaoke at the ghetto bar across the street from me, and my first single is featured on Shine FM by Christmas. Maybe a rendition of 'Silent Night' would be a good start.
2)I meet the man of my dreams in the checkout at H&W (the discount produce store in Millwoods), and after a whirlwind romance that includes lots of long walks, him cooking me supper, flowers, and candy, we run off to Barbados to get married on a beach. Everyone is invited.
3)I win the nobel peace prize for all my hard work at Boston Pizza South Edmonton Commons. Maybe I'll come up with some way to feed all the starving people in Africa with a few measly pizzas, kind of like Jesus did with the loaves and fishes, only mine will involve cloning somehow...along with prayer.
4)I lose my legs after a beam from a burning building falls on me just after I save a family of 6 and their dog Spot from the flames. I would not be able to save Fluffy the cat (that's ok, I don't like cats anyways), but I get a cool medal for my heroism. And bionic legs.

Yeah, so anyways, like I said, those are the four most likely things I will experience this year. But, I suppose we'll have to wait and see. I'll keep everyone posted...or if not, I'm sure my mom will. She likes to talk about me and my sister's 'adventures'